needs

I need to be somewhere far. away from him.
I need time. to pull myself together
I need to be my old self again. to not care and be free
and i need to drink because these needs are driving me mad!!

figured where july went

this little boy turned 2! 
and had his first haircut and then, there's....

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thanks deeaye for reminding me.
sans a few emo episodes, july was indeed a blast! no wonder it flew by so quickly!

spaced out much?

i was reading a blog i loved and posted a comment. when the comment appeared, the date showed july 24.

i paused for a minute and just as i was about to adjust my pc's date settings, i realized, it REALLY is july 24!

where did july go, i wonder.

hurt

the worst part is, he doesn't even know.

in a way, i'm at fault i guess. i should've known better than to trust my insticts.

but then if i am not able to do that, trust whatever my instincts tell me, then what's left?
is it better than the alternative that is cynicism and doubt?

take a chance, leap the leap otherwise you won't know. That's what everybody says.

So i did.

and look where i am now.

flattery or insult?

Icon Bar, 5:00AM
I was with des, standing by the bar dancing to our heart's content. Adam was in the washroom. A foreigner pops in front of me, extends his hand and says hi.
Foreign guy : Hi! I'm Jayson. You are?
Me : (10 second pause) Hi! I'm Michelle.
Foreign guy : (doesn't let go of my hand and leans even closer) How are you?
Me : I'm good.
Foreign guy : wanna dance?
Me : nah, i'm tired. Thanks!
Foreign guy : Wanna go to my place?
Me : Uh, No.
Foreign guy : So, wanna go to your place then?
Me : (giving him a pat on the shoulder) Nope, try someone else

A few minutes later, as des and i were walking towards the washroom, same guy approached me and goes:

Foreign guy : Hi.
Me : You already said hi to me earlier
Foreign guy : I know, so are we going to your place?

i upped and left before he can say anything else.
flattery or insult? take your pick.