for the nth time, i'm not in college

in a country of mixed races such as the US, asians have a slight advantage - we do not age as fast as other races. more often than not, asians who are well beyond their prime are  mistaken as way younger than their actual age.

i've had my share. more than my share.

it's not that i'm complaining. i mean who wouldn't wanna look young right? 

however, while it's such a huge complement to be mistaken for a college kid, it has it's price.

besides the fact that i couldn't have drinks without an ID that has my birthday on it, what i noticed is that the people (read boys/men) who seem to show interest in me are on that age group - the young. way too young. like college kids young. 

that or the men my age are simply not interested in me. hahahaha! tough luck!

sabi ko nga sa pinoy na lang ako eh!

1 week to say adieu

has it been 2 months??? 

i feel like i just got here! there's still so much shopping to do! (panic much?)

in 1 week, i shall go back to Manila

until then,  i have 2 months to be with my family and friends back home while keeping my fingers crossed for the next trip here come October.

i love my job. i do. i really really do.

mid-day ramblings at work

i'm here in the US for a project...however, the materials we need for us to proceed are still somewhere in Kenya and Uganda making their way to New Jersey.

so now i'm a lull. don't get me wrong, i don't usually mind not doing anything at work. i mean, back in manila, this NEVER HAPPENS.

however, an idle mind can make you go antok or crazy. the antok i can handle. a cup of coffee or a puff of dunhill does the trick. it's the crazies that's drives me..well, crazy. it's times like this when you reminisce and think of the past. it wouldn't be a problem if all were good memories. but that's not the case. it's the bad ones that always pop up and when they do, it becomes an explosion of pandora's box.

maybe karma got lost?

i was reading bunny's entry on karma yesterday and you guessed it, i empathized. it got me thinking about my own karma. i mean, i'm grateful to have been blessed by a wonderful and loving family and i'm fortunate to have always been surrounded by awesome friends. i have a great job that allows me to do what i want and lets me travel to places i can only dream of going.

now come the BUT.

my lovelife has been on a losing streak. while it's true that one can't have everything, it sucks that i haven't had a decent relationship in a long time. and by a long time i meant the last real relationship i had. it's been 7 friggin years. sure i've gone out and had "relationships" after that but all were either fleeting or the what-was-i-thinking-kinda-stupid.

going back to karma, what is it that i've done that karma's been messing with my heart for the last decade? and if karma is indeed a bitch, how come the ones who did me wrong had their happily ever after?

naliligo naman ako ah.

Fried brains anyone?

It's monday and my brain refuses to send signals for the rest of my body to function. Well, except for my fingers who are too stubborn to tweet and blog and update FB! Hahahha!

the other side of the bed

i'm one of those people who find comfort in sleeping alone. at least most of the time. and why won't i? all the pillows are mine. no one snores. and there's more room to move.

but then there are nights when i long to have someone on that side of the bed.

a friend once told me, you shouldn't take both sides of the bed, otherwise no one will share it with you.

well i haven't been using that side of the bed for a FRIGGIN LONG TIME.  too long that i found a dent on my side! so now i wanna sleep on that other side because the cushion is much softer and nicer!

which made me think. if that side was meant for whoever he is, and now that i wanna take his side...will he take my old side of the bed or insist on taking what was originally his? hahaha!

i'm not making sense. so what. i'm alone in my room. on a beautiful sunday afternoon. with nothing else to do but blab! so there, that's my bitching for this week.

and i wonder if i ever cross your mind

....for me it happens all the time....

just around the corner

so how come i'm not feeling it yet? despite the fabulous displays in almost all the malls here in KL, i really am not in holiday spirits.

boo! imma have to start feelin it. SOON!!! after all, scrooge is so overrated.

35 days to go.

good to be home

so it's day 2 in manila and everything is better than fine.

Day 1 was spent with my family. Well at least for the entire 4hours that i was awake! Hahaha! mama cooked adobo since i requested for it. Since i started getting lo ng out of the country assignments, adobo has been my welcome meal. So even if airline food as yet to be digested, i had to eat. After all, no one cooks adobo like my mom!

my nephew miguel could not get enough of me and i'm not complaining. he now has this eay of looking and smiling at you as if to say uuuyyy ninang is here! And his words! Omg! It's only been a month but his vocabulary has increased tremendously. That plus the fact that he's more pilyo than ever. once i said no and he goes "aba laban na ha!" and the gives me the cutest smile! hahaha!

Today was spent at work. and as expected, i was swamped. But i don't mind. I love what i do! 2 days down. 5 days to go before i leave again.

Oh and the best part is i saw him and i was ok. which is a far cry from where i was a month ago. Snaps for me!

manila, oh how i love thee. You're far from perfect but i am happy to call you my imperfect home :)

domestic diva in KL

unlike my last trip here in KL where we stayed at the Renaissance, this time we were fortunate enough to be booked in a serviced apartment. which meant, that we can cook and eat the food that we like. it's cheap and won't give you gas.
so today, we went to market. and i mean, a real wet market. my mom will be proud.

and then i cooked a decent lunch for me and my roomies to share.



torta and mixed veggies with basmati rice
cooking relaxes me. that plus the fact that i like it when people like what i cook. so yes, i am a domestic diva in KL as i was in Melbourne
just don't tell my mom.

spaced out much?

i was reading a blog i loved and posted a comment. when the comment appeared, the date showed july 24.

i paused for a minute and just as i was about to adjust my pc's date settings, i realized, it REALLY is july 24!

where did july go, i wonder.

flattery or insult?

Icon Bar, 5:00AM
I was with des, standing by the bar dancing to our heart's content. Adam was in the washroom. A foreigner pops in front of me, extends his hand and says hi.
Foreign guy : Hi! I'm Jayson. You are?
Me : (10 second pause) Hi! I'm Michelle.
Foreign guy : (doesn't let go of my hand and leans even closer) How are you?
Me : I'm good.
Foreign guy : wanna dance?
Me : nah, i'm tired. Thanks!
Foreign guy : Wanna go to my place?
Me : Uh, No.
Foreign guy : So, wanna go to your place then?
Me : (giving him a pat on the shoulder) Nope, try someone else

A few minutes later, as des and i were walking towards the washroom, same guy approached me and goes:

Foreign guy : Hi.
Me : You already said hi to me earlier
Foreign guy : I know, so are we going to your place?

i upped and left before he can say anything else.
flattery or insult? take your pick.

funny

college crush: good morning beautiful
me: good morning crazy person!
college crush: lakers or celtics?
me: (with full confidence)celtics...just coz i like odum and i hate coby!
college crush: odum is the powerforward of lakers. buti na lang maganda ka.

nuff said hahahaha!

sleepless in melbourne

it's 5am now and i have not slept a wink.

since i got here, my body clock refused to adapt. i am still in manila time.

i know it's just two hours. but if your sleeping habits are anything close to mine, 2 hours is a lot. i sleep late in manila which means i sleep even later now that i am here WHICH MEANS i have to wake up earlier!

sleeping gods...can you be a bit nicer to me? plesae pretty please?

running

you know, the usual friendly run for a cause thingy that seems to be the buzz all around the metro? well a number of my friends are already into it and have constantly raved about it. i, on the otherhand, am not.

i.am.not.athletic.

i don't even know how to ride the bike. seriously. i never learned. never wanted to learn. the reason is very simple. i don't like scars. maarte na kung maarte.

last night, a friend showed me photos of him finishing a race. here's how the conversation went:

dan: did you see the pictures?
me: yeah. athletic much?
dan: you should start running too
me: nope, not my thing
dan: try it. it's fun
me: no thank you. besides, it's painful on the boobs!

nuff said.

of ASLs and LOLs

back in the day, back when facebook nor friendster has yet to hit the online community, chatting via MIRC was the in/cool thing happening.

online access then was also limited thus, if you're in it, you are sorta part of the elite so to speak. it was a whole new world of fun to say the least. i remember being excited to go home just to check if my online friends are in the room. to say i was an addict is an understatement.

who wouldn't? the thought of striking interesting conversations excited me to the core. it was, in a way, a means a channel to spar with somebody else's wit. and boy there were a lot.

it was fun. until the information highway peaked. suddenly everyone had access. the elite group became the norm. chatrooms got saturated and were overtaken by pervs and what nots.

the once staple asls and lols were replaced by sebs and sops and who knows how many other chat lingos. people started to become less interesting and the chance of finding a decent conversation was as slim as finding a needle in a haystack.

my addiction waned and my interest disappeared. oh, and i grew up and had a job. but that's beside the point.

suffice to say that i have not entered a chatroom for years.

until last night.

for lack of anything to do and my usual inability to sleep at will, i downloaded and installed mirc. it was like riding a bike as they say. once you know how, you won't ever forget. before i knew it, private chats started popping. sadly though, none were worth a single keystroke. the first line counts. a mere asl or hey there! simply wouldn't do the cut.

and then this guy messaged me and said something about my nick to which i replied with a bitchy comment. before i could type again, he strikes back in an even more sarcastic tone. i was pumped. that was what i missed! the exchange of sarcastic, obnoxious banter accompanied by funny witty remarks. i couldn't help but smile the entire time. nothing excites me more than a play on words. a mental foreplay if i may say. sarcasm, wit and charm is such good combination.

this morning he messaged me again, YM this time. i have to admit, it did put a smile on my face.

hmn...i have a funny feeling that i won't be missing facebook anytime soon.

funny tuesday morning

my day started funny today. i woke up fuming mad over some girl who stole my man. i knew it was just a dream but i found myself pouting in utmost frustration because i can't put a face on who that stupid bitch was!

if only i knew who she was, then i'd know who to watch out for! stupid skanky bitch! imma get her next time! hahahaha!

i wanted to blog about my latest conversation with D

but i didn't have any time. so now the moment has passed. the excitement over what was probably one of the most interesting conversations i've had with D has waned.

too bad. maybe next time.

what's in a name

when i was born, i had dimples on both cheeks. naturally, my parents saw it fit to call me that.

now, 33 years later, i'm still wondering where they went :D

teeny bopper mode

i am totally crushing on someone.

you know the one that you have in highschool? the kind when just seeing him totally makes your day? the kind that makes your knees wobble when he smiles at you?

that kind. i have it. i have one. at work.

 it does feel nice. so i'm saying it again. i am totally crushing on someone. la la la!

now every morning, i give myself ten extra minutes to put on a lil blush and dab a bit of gloss coz ill never know when the universe will turn in my favor and let me get stuck in the elevator with him. hahahaha! it's high school all over again and i can't help but smile.

lost soul in seoul

it was bound to happen. i'm never good at directions. ask any of my friends and they'll agree. heck, i can even get lost inside an effin mall for crying out loud.

i woke up late thanks to Obama's inauguration hahaha! by the time i was ready, everybody else have already left that i was forced to fend for myself.

so i walked. and walked. across the streets. into the subway. out of the subway and onto the streets again. only to find out that i exited on the wrong side. surprise surprise!

not only was i late but i had to retrace my steps before i reached the office.

that being said however, i still am proud! i got to work. on foot. in the middle of winter. in Korea. by myself.